Sierrea

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I am back bitches! :D I had a lovely week on texel! One week with my boyfriend like hell yeas :woohoo: so we did a lot we watched many movies played games went to the fair where he got me a bracelet we ate a whole lot of icecream walked to the village a lot sat on the beach watched the sunset almost every night wrestled in the sand walked through the dunes enjoyed the sun went to ecomare (a place where they take care of sick seals and seals who aren't able to live in the wild anymore) and took many sily pictures and oh my gawd I just loved it normally I sit at home on my laptop all day I didn't even miss the poor thing (sorry lappy....) but

I know, tons of people have it worse then me... But I feel so fucking messed up ;_; Since monday night I'm having real weird dreams about my ex, It scares the living hell out of me I don't want that bastard, he can just go and rot somewhere... I don't hate him... But I don't like him either And my boyfriend left for texel the day after the first dream But since he's got no wifi I'm not able to talk to him And that just kills me ;_; Luckily I'm seeing him again tommorrow... But still Why am I so fucked up? ;_; I feel like a hormonal pregnant woman And the best part I'm worring myself sick That will probably be gone soon but yeah